{"id":111,"date":"2009-11-27T16:57:42","date_gmt":"2009-11-27T16:57:42","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sophiehoulden.com\/writings\/fair\/?p=111"},"modified":"2009-11-27T16:57:44","modified_gmt":"2009-11-27T16:57:44","slug":"chapter-44-madness","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sophiehoulden.com\/writings\/fair\/?p=111","title":{"rendered":"Chapter 44: Madness."},"content":{"rendered":"<p><!-- \t\t@page { size: 21cm 29.7cm; margin: 2cm } \t\tP { margin-bottom: 0.21cm } --><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\"><font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">Cadence floated in the darkness, stars danced wildly around her for a time, but then faded.<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\"><font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">Drifting, Cadence felt so alone.<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\"><font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">her mirror image appeared before her, \u00e2\u20ac\u0153Ignis was right you know.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">\u00e2\u20ac\u0153<font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">About what?\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">\u00e2\u20ac\u0153<font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">for us to become a monster, it&#8217;s inevitable.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">\u00e2\u20ac\u0153<font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">It doesn&#8217;t have to be, I still believe that, I&#8217;ll never turn into what he did.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">\u00e2\u20ac\u0153<font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">that&#8217;s true&#8230;\u00e2\u20ac\u009d her mirror disappeared and spoke from behind her \u00e2\u20ac\u0153you became something much worse.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\"><font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">Cadence turned round in shock, \u00e2\u20ac\u0153what do you mean?\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">\u00e2\u20ac\u0153<font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">Ignis went mad sure, he longed for destruction and killed many, even causing suffering. But you, you are the one who turned your own friend into that, your not only mad, you are spreading it.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\"><font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">Cadence didn&#8217;t know how to respond, \u00e2\u20ac\u0153when did I become this way&#8230;\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">\u00e2\u20ac\u0153<font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">you were always this way Cadence, you just used to be better at hiding it.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\"><font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">&#8211;<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\"><font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">Cadence drifted alone in the void for some time, struggling to come to terms with the monster she seemed to have become.<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">\u00e2\u20ac\u0153<font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">It&#8217;s not your fault you know.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d her reflection said from below, as if rippling across the surface of a black sea. \u00e2\u20ac\u0153you might have stood a chance if she hadn&#8217;t abandoned you.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">\u00e2\u20ac\u0153<font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">&#8230;Doll.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">\u00e2\u20ac\u0153<font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">It was bad enough for her to have died, but if she didn&#8217;t its a cut much worse. You had no choice but to hide in the madness, to wrap its blanket tighter around you to shield from the world, and now she is going to kill you.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">\u00e2\u20ac\u0153<font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">She wouldn&#8217;t!\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">\u00e2\u20ac\u0153<font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">and you know that how? You don&#8217;t even know her anymore Cadence, are you sure you even did before? She was always so quiet. And all those times she ran away, trying on different personalities like they were clothes&#8230; did she ever take you with her?\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">\u00e2\u20ac\u0153<font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">She never did actually open up to me&#8230;\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">\u00e2\u20ac\u0153<font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">she is a stranger Cadence, deal with her as such!\u00e2\u20ac\u009d the mirror faded.<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\" mce_style=\"margin-bottom: 0cm;\">\u00e2\u20ac\u0153<font face=\"Lucida Sans, sans-serif\"><font size=\"3\">I guess I will, my heart is already too broken, and I think my mind will go the same way,\u00e2\u20ac\u009d Cadence drifted higher, \u00e2\u20ac\u0153after all, it&#8217;s inevitable.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Cadence floated in the darkness, stars danced wildly around her for a time, but then faded. &nbsp; Drifting, Cadence felt so alone. &nbsp; her mirror image appeared before her, \u00e2\u20ac\u0153Ignis was right you know.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d &nbsp; \u00e2\u20ac\u0153About what?\u00e2\u20ac\u009d &nbsp; \u00e2\u20ac\u0153for us to become a monster, it&#8217;s inevitable.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d &nbsp; \u00e2\u20ac\u0153It doesn&#8217;t have to be, I still believe [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-111","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sophiehoulden.com\/writings\/fair\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/111","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sophiehoulden.com\/writings\/fair\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sophiehoulden.com\/writings\/fair\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sophiehoulden.com\/writings\/fair\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sophiehoulden.com\/writings\/fair\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=111"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.sophiehoulden.com\/writings\/fair\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/111\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":113,"href":"https:\/\/www.sophiehoulden.com\/writings\/fair\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/111\/revisions\/113"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sophiehoulden.com\/writings\/fair\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=111"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sophiehoulden.com\/writings\/fair\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=111"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sophiehoulden.com\/writings\/fair\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=111"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}